why...

today...
how contrasting today was, or is...

woke up from a dream about my best friend Jess, a baby, human eating fish, and curtians. it was about 7. i dozed until 10ish.
then a phone call got me out of bed.
it was jess.
she told me some news which made me cry. still makes me cry.
i dont know how to handle the situation myself, even though it doesnt directly invovle me...
i love her dearly, and dont want to see her hurt... and she is atm... which in turn makes me hurt to se, hear, feel her hurting...

complained about it to Burkie... and somehow got an offer to (finally) meet him.. i was nervous.. ha! silly really, but i was...
but i thought, what the hell, i will concour my nerves and go. and i did.
aside from me completely forgetting it was a saturday, and thus mixing up bus times, i got to the city relativly on time...
i had an enjoyable afternoon burkie, so thankyou for that...
got my mind off things, and you entertained me...

and so now im sitting here, home alone, eating choc chip icecream. feeling all very old, but very, very young at the same time..

crazeyness... how could this have happened.. yes lord, i know how it happened... but why... why...

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