4 weeks...

this is the very last week of YITS forever.
i am trying not to cry already, but lately, i seem to be crying a bit.
maybe its the stuff to do with Jess, maybe its yits finishing, maybe its just hormonal, but tears come to my eyes so easily.

i talked with jess again yesterday.
i think it was one of the deepest conversations we've had in a while. God was brought up, future was definatly brought up, and i reinstated how much i loved her, and that i am standing by her in this, no matter what decision is made.
and me? how am i feeling about it all... i feel so selfish for talking about my feelings throughout and about this. i mean, its not like its my life its directly affecting...
im still sad about it. but also, somewhere, hidden deep inside, im getting a little excited. and i think jess is too.
perhaps, to those of you i have told (which isnt many of you, becuase it is hardly my secret to tell..) i will say more to becuase then i wont be as cryptive. though im sure the extreemly astute of you will already have some ideas as to whats going on....

and now i cant sleep. i woke at 7:16am this morning, and got up... i am leaving for camp around 11ish.. unless other wise told... still have to pack...
still have to shower and shave my leggies...

and leave comments.. i like them, and seem to have had a lack of them lately... *grins*

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