rant.
i feel so uninspired sitting here, looking at the blank post page infront of me.
i read lamentations last night.
i cried while reading it.
how painful it must have been for God to destroy his city like that, to scatter his people who he loved so dearly.
how painful must it be each time we sin. each time we willingly turn from him and serve another god, who we love much more. ourselves.
and yet we still do.
a friend told me today that she wants to make a documentary on why Christians (western christians) dont care. we care only about ourselves. and its true. and yet, im too apathetic to do anything about it.
this is a disease. it is killing us. we have become of the world, and not in it. seriously, look at western christianity. what looks different?! the same consumersm, same materialism, same selfishness and the same apathetic attitude that is in the rest of society.
where is the difference?
we dance around in our exclusive chuches to a God who is all love and no anger. sing praises to the risen Jesus, but forget the beaten, broken, suffering one. we get our spiritual high on sunday, and by monday it has worn off and we are back to being like everyone else in this world.
and i know this is a problem, and yet what am i doing about it?! why cant i see past myself, and my own problems. and yes, this is being entirely hypocritical, sitting here, blogging about how christians are selfish.
i feel so entirely helpless. what can i do?
a whole deal actually, but i am too afraid, too reluctant, too apathetic to actually do it.
oh, a heart for the poor, a heart for the widowed, a heart for the opressed.
we are meant to seek justice, to stop doing wrong and turn to God and do right.
"Stop doing wrong, learn to do right!
Seek justice,
encourage the oppressed.
Defend the cause of the fatherless,
plead the case of the widow."
Isaiah 1: 16-17.
the bible is full of it! and yet we only look at the stuff that makes us feel good. the fact that we are saved.
but didnt jesus say to do what he did? and isnt that part of what he did?!
are we really followers of christ if we do not activly pursue justice and mercy?
i dont know...
I really feel what you're saying there Sam. Our own selfishness is one of the real sticking points I have with the church right now. But, like you, what am I doing here? Sitting here in front of my computer writing about it.
Also, how does this must make Christians look to non Christians? As with the famous DC Talk quote about the greatest single cause of atheism. I wonder if people see the behaviours of people like me as showing the lack of reality in the faith I claim to portray?
Sorry for the tangent. I am frustrated right now as well, although probably for slightly different reasons. Keep up the great blogging.
Trav
