Before...

Up until last night i thought my life was pretty sorted out.

Up until this afternoon i was happy.

Up until 10 minutes ago i was in a pretty happy household, with both my father and sister in good moods.


Now...

i am alone.

i feel a great urge to cry.

and my life is as unsure, and sucky, as it was before.


i wish i could explain it better, but how can i? when i myself am unsure what exactly is wrong.

who am i supposed to be?
when i am myself i annoy people.
when im someone else i annoy people.

i dont understand...


God, you have made me like this.

why am i letting it affect me...

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