Faces, Memories, Emotions, Love
i wanted to write this before this week, after the thought came into my mind last week. but i thought it might have been a little more final, and special if i did it post camp, so here goes...
35 people, 39 if you include facilitators, and how i viewed them, special moments i remember, and the like...
not in any order or preference, just in order of affirmation from the camp... minus me at the start...
Emma - i have a profound respect for her. i look up to her. i didnt really get to know her, which i am a little sad about. but as she says, you cant know everyone... and i will hopefully see her again, particulary if she lives wih Lexie...
Kym - ahh. dear Kymmie... i havent really gotten to know her either. i see that she has depth. ha! how odd to say with out sounding cliche...
Ben - *smiles* i have done caf duty all year with ben, and hes just wonderful.. i view him as a brother type figure. and he has the best hugs... nice, tight ones... my fondess for him has grown over the past couple of months...
Jess W - apart from having a great lot of love for her, and absolutly loving being friends with her, i see and respect, and admire how she is so open, and honest, and wrestles with God for the answer to lifes questions, and askes other, wise peoples opinions... has been great getting to know her out of school, and after school...
Elle Belle - my gosh... if i werent friends with her, i would be jealous of her, though sometimes friendship doesnt stop that... she is wise, she is elegant, she is attractive, she is gentle. being in her accountability group has been wonderful. i have seen her grow in confidence, which just makes her even more beautiful...
Rach - i remember at the start of the year, rach was one of the, oh, 3 people that i just could not remember the name of... but she is really wonderful. she is gentle, and has a beautful smile, and a kind warm heart...
Jane - i have grown very fond of Jane... *sighs* one of the people i dont think i will see very much, and that will be sad... she is fun, honest, and strong. and a colour person...
Michael - i like seeing the serious side of him... i dont get to see it often, and it sometimes suprises me when it comes out. i cant really tell where serious meets fun, or the other way around.
Amy S - how i love her... i met her last year at a mutual friends party, and to see how much she has grown over this year has been amazing. i remember when she mentioned on entrolment that she wasnt sure if YITS was for her... and i am truely, genuinly glad that she continued to. i never got annoyed by her... though i did laugh at her a lot... but now i see how beautiful, and bubbly, and chirpy she is...
Tracey - she suprises me. a beautiful mixture of mature and immature. i see that she can have immense fun, and then turn around, almost in the same breath and try and help someone else... i have had a couple good talks with her, and am proud to call her a friend.
Jessmyn - random phonecalls in the holidays, being very suprised but still chatting for a good half hour. she is honest in everything. i think she just wants someone to care, and be interested.. though, i could, of course be very wrong in that statement...
Nath - oh my... he is wise, and strong, and dependable... a gentleman... its encouraging to know that there are some decent guys out there.. just need to find the single ones.. *grins* i havent really gotten to know him very well... which is kinda sad...
Laura - i love her so dearly. she has a lot of aspects in her that i so strongly admire. she is srong, she is courageous, she is caring, she is vulnerable, she is loving, she is beatiful. she makes everyone one who talks with her feel so incredibly special. i feel blessed to know her...
Matt - ahh.. what to say. somehow it only seems like im getting to know him as the year ends.. ended... i always noticed him, but i never really talked to him. but when i did, i liked what i heard... how to properly say what i think...? i like matt, though i cant quite say why. perhaps, as i get to know him better, i will be able to discern why, but not right now...
Amey - i regret not knowing her more. she has this beautiful smile which lights up her whole face, and makes me want to smile as well...
Mark - ha! i just travelled home with him in the car, and got to know him a little better... i dont know him exceptionally well, but i do admire his kindness... he was the only person (well..no, there have been three) but the only person, who drove past when i had handed in assgnments at college, and given me a lift... without me asking for one...
Clare - *smiles* i love clare. aside from the fact im sure i completely scared her by her having dinner at my house, i know that she is a good friend. perhaps, one thing i miss, is a deeper friendship with her. i strongly admire her leadership, and see her as a woman of God. if she says she will do something, she will, she is reliable..
Dawn - she is a real little ray of sunshine. perhaps, if i had let myself, i could have gotten annoyed by her, but i didnt. i loved her hugs. i love how she is friends with everyone. she answers truthfully when i ask her questions. i see her a fragile child of God, desperatly trying to stay strong...
Sara - she is gorgeous. and there is something incredibly real about her. i dont feel like i am talking to a heavily guarded person, and, even though we might have not much in common, i rather like her...
Jess C - she is a trustworthy person... she is a hidden person at times, but i am amazed by flashes of matureity that come out. good suprises...
Jo Jo - Joanna May... oh gosh Jo... you make everyone who you talk with special. i am so glad i know you jo... ahh, now im a little teary.... Jo, never, ever doubt how much you are loved. i want to get to know the serious Jo more, becuase i have seen some of her, and i want to know more.. ha! how selfish does that sound.. thankyou for caring jo jo...
Bec - *smiles* bec, you know how i feel about you.... i love you bec. its as simple as that. and im sure i annoy you sometimes, but i really appreciate our friendship... i admire your courage, and maturity, and wonderfulness....
Ames - hello! she gave me a mobile... and didnt accept any payment for it... she is absolutly gorgeous. a beautiuful, almost cheeky grin...
Darryn - i love the fact that he grew confident enough to speak up in class... i admire that... his little comments make me think, and he has an odd, but semi funny sense of humour...
Iain - oh man.. another YITS guy i see as my brother. there is a deep affection that he has and i am drawn to him. but in a non romantic way... i can trust him, and feel safe around him...
Alice - i must admit, that it took me a little while to get used to alice. i now absolutly adore her, but her extra exrovertness took me a little a back for a while... she has this radiating vibrance which i love...
Kat - gosh.. she could be a supermodel... and she has this huge caring heart. another real person. i see in her a hidden strength, and a vulnerability... and i love her funness and happyness...
Katie - you are just so cool katie... ha! i know.. im sure i could come up with a more and better descriptive word than cool, but hey, its stuck... i admire you, becuase you seem so confident, and like you have most of life together... and im sure that you dont, but hey... if i have your approval for something, i think what im doing is good, and it will be ok... and im sure i annoy you too, but hey...
Nat - oh my darling nat. i felt a connection with nat way at the begininng of the year. aside from the fact she is absolutly gorgeous, she is fun, and loving... she is younger than me, but so often is way more mature than i am. i see that she has a lot to deal with in life, and has a deep strength to try to handle it all. i think she takes on a great deal of her families burdens.. i love nat very deeply...
Tom - oh tom, what to say... you are just amazing... perhaps i dont know you as well i wanted to, my own fault... you have this undenyable charisma that make people drawn to you. you make me laugh, i admire your artistic and creative talents, and you give wonderful hugs... oh, and the fact that you are gorgeous...
Lexie - my dear alecia... you are like another older sister. you are caring and friendly, and i love you a lot. sometimes more than words can express... i love talking to you, i love playing with your hair, and giving you massages... thankyou for caring enough about me to ask how i am, and thankyou for being so trust worthy to tell the truth to...
Dave - three words. trustworthy, fun, hidden. yes, i know you are allowed to be private. i am curious... but perhaps i should apologise for my noseyness... so dave, im sorry for my noseyness and prying and annoyedness...
Jess H - aside from being physically attractive, physically gorgeous, she is so, so kind. i love to see how she seeks after God. knowing her in a non school environment has been rather beneficial. and i admire her quest for answers and her loyalty to her friends, expecially those out of YITS, from school...
Kerryn - the truth must stand here... i love kerryn, and being in her account' group has been one of the best, and most challenging things of this year. perhaps this is where God has been testing my love and tolerance and acceptance. in kerryn i see a woman struggleing to come to grips with her life, with what plan God has for her, and a great passion to share the deep love she has from God with others. a great passion for that... i dont think kerryn really gets me, and perhaps, as a result of that i havent made a conscience effort to be more of a friend to her...
and the facciliators will come later... when i am not falling asleep... 3 hours and 4 minutes later, and this blog is published... with a lot of spelling mistakes im sure...
