Wednesday Foot Mandalas
My foot mandala.
ok. so maybe you cant see much of it.
let me try and explain it, using what i think it may mean (and it doesnt have to mean anything), and some of what Dee said it could mean.
ok.. the green outside/ around the circle is God, and how i connect with him a lot (through creation). the blue things around the outside, is a path (i kinda ment for it to be my life journey so far), starting at the bottom right.
oh, and the gold glitter is also God.
the watercolour blue in the circle (yeah, so you cant tell) is symbolising calm. the other blue is saddness and pain (yeah, i did this when i was feeling low).
anyway. that was about as far as i thought about it, or what not. and so i asked Dee (who ran the thing for us) and yeah, i kinda went into the whole thing wanting to know what she thought of what ever i produced...
she said a lot of stuff along the lines of ive gone through pain/ trauma in my childhood, that the person in the foot is who i am now, and the person to the left is me as a child. alone.
and somehow it kinda all got onto my mum... i so wasnt thinking about that. she said that perhaps i need to deal with the pain that i hide from, and not think about. that Gods telling me that its time for healing, that my soul needs it. (or something like that)
if you want to know anything more about it, ask me... i just cant get the detail in here.
anyway. sitting on the table before class this morning, feeling tired, and sad, and the people who i wanted to ask me how i was didnt, and yet, Emma did. and so i answered truthfully. well, as truthfully as i could with out being vulnerable.
event management was evil.
stood outside in the sun massageing michael. now i dont usually massage guys, only if they ask for it. anyway, i was massaging him, and knowing i was going to get sunburnt. i did. my thumb got sore too, he had some evil knots.
went to eastland just to get away, with Jess. bought a pizza slice. was the last thing i ate.
played basketball with dave. and then more people joined. just nice... (cant think of any big words atm.. head too everywhere).
had a good convo with Lexie.
had good convo in the car on way home.
i sit here now and think about it. i credit those three things to the spirit. in fact the spirit is one thing Lexie and i talked about. i was never exposed to charismatic things, so i dont really understand the spirit very much. i mean, just being reassured that someone i admire and respect (yes lex, i do :)) has these worried too. anyways. i think i got a spirit insight just before....
and now im home, talking to some poeple. my mind is kinda out the window. im tired, but dont want to go to bed.
