the things i know...

there are things i know.

these things i know i cant help, or change. but sometimes they get the most of me, and all i want to do is cry, and cry and cry.

i know that i cant help him being so far away.
i know i cant help other people having their boyfriends living so close, and going out to the movies, or catching the train with them.

i know that i shouldnt compare myself, or my relationship to those around me, as its not the same.

i know that this wont be forever, and i will see him again.
i know these tears will pass.


if i know all these things, then how come it doesnt change how i feel.
if i know all these things, then how come i still feel sad not being around him, i still feel that little pang of jealousy when i hear happy stories of friends relationships.

and then i remember God.
i remember that i desire for Him to be present and real in this relationship.
how He gives strength to those who ask for it.
and patience to those who seek it.


we knew that it wouldnt be easy... but for him, i am willing to go through it.

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