said person again...

*sighs*

i think i like said person again...
its crazy... i keep thinking about him... hmm...
im keeping my options open, but i do want to be in a relationship...
maybe one day i'll give him this blog link, and he can find out all my secrets, cause, im trying really hard to discover his...

is it always this hard? i mean, i want to be able to like him, but then the thought comes into my mind, what if he likes someone else... and i dont want to be kept back by my fears, but they are still real and present. i want to have a pzuepo, i want to be liked. and im not like bec, connecting everything to something, and im not like burkie pursueing relationships, and im not like jo, who is waiting to keep her promise to God. i am sam, who just wants to love and be loved, i am sam who cries when she gets tired, who desperatly wants others approval, who loves being happy, who wants to meet said person, but is bound by time, age and transport constraints...
i am the person who God created me to be, i know that, and i thought i had loving myself down pat at the start of the year. perhaps i did, and now i dont.
can you really have someone love you, when you dont fully love yourself?
no, i do love myself... how strange that sounds...

perhaps i am letting my fears keep me back... i mean, wheres the fun of being loved if theirs not the chance that your heart mught get broken in the process?

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