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why is it that now i feel more lost than i did at the end of camp?
perhaps is becuase i may never see some of those, these, people again...
i know there are people i will see again, but it makes me sad to think of the fact that i may never see some of the others again.
perhaps it has finally caught up with me.
last night jess w invited all the yitsers over to her house. quite a few turned up, quite a few didnt. the usual bbq and funities...
the first to arrive, as usual. with bec of course... mmm, perhaps i should stop relying on bec for a lift everywhere... but that is me tangenting...
immediatly started to help jess prepare some food... cutting salad bits... spring onion, tomatoes, carrots, wombok... bec did the rest...
other people started to arrive. elle looked gorgeous, which she has been doing more and more often lately... its interesting how a year of getting fashion guidance from Kat has changed her style...
and i started to go crazy... not bad crazy but really tired crazy... i was just out of it... i wondered if that would be like what i am drunk... it might be... but ive never been drink, only ever so slightly tipsy, and then i couldnt stop giggleing...
lots of things were making me laugh, and when i laughed i couldnt stop, and it hurt to laugh...
katie and i kicked serious butt in our two games of fooseball against bec and clare... mostly to katies doing, though i did score some pretty fine goals from the goalie down the other end... i was defense...
sitting inside now, with lollies.. argh... i dont think ive eaten that much junk food in a very, very long time... and then jess brought out icecream! i had to have some, so i did... and then i ate daves too (with katies help)...
and i randomly started drawing happy faces on people... katie was first, and she got the most, cause i was sitting below her
and then the.. interesting.. messages to someone started... i think i wasted a good $1 or 2 on him... it was amusing though...
(note to self... buy more credit...)
played a game of... errr... imagine if? apparently, according to general consensus, i would be most like the 1960's move the sound of music... yay for me... heh...
but then i went outside to hang out with tracey, iain, dawnie and jessmyn... and let me tell you.. i had more fun out there.. well.. not more fun.. but certinatly had a lot of fun... more the type of fun that im used to... you know, the slightly sexual slant of fun... and aside from me nearly falling over becuase i was so tired i couldnt balance, and kept on laughing... but then trace gave me some red bull and i settled down...
i will definatly miss her... shes off to perth next year, and i dont know if i'll ever see her again... maybe i will have to save up enough money to go visit her, and dan...
and then gerry came up the drive... gerry being becs dad... and we had to go... probably a good thing, cause i was really, ergh, out of it...
ha! and then i came home and went on the computer.. he he.. maybe that should be banned when im in that sort of mood... i think i may have scared prowdy...
i was in one of those moods where i just say it how i think it.. and generally dont think a lot about the consequences... i was being playful, and flirty, and brave... you connect the dots...
and then i had to go to bed.. he he.. a wise decision... i slept for a good 9 hours, had a few weird, very detailed dreams, that i cant remember, but probably could if i tried really hard... i think there were people i knew in them, but i told you, i cant remember...
and now im here, on the compy again, wondering what to do today... i kinda want to go out and do something... any volunteers to keep my company?
