Left Out

i read a friends blog the other day. (yes, something not so uncommon for me) and i had the terrible feeling of being left out. this person was a school friend.
now at school, we didnt have a very big year 12 class, or any other class for that matter. there were about 40 of us at the end. since year 7 i had always hung out with my best friend, becuase she is a jealous person, and becuase i like her. however, she doesnt get along very well with the other people i wanted to be friends with, so that left me in a predicament. it was more into the senior school, or years 11 and 12 that this became a bigger problem.
i always tried to spend time with this other group of friends, and i would consider them my friends, but unfortunatly, i dont think it goes the other way.
now bec, if and when you read this, im not attacking you at all. i just feel a little sad.

at school somehow i was always associated with my best friend. and it annoyed me. sure we were best friends, but i was my own person. i hated the fact that people didnt invite me to their parties becuase they didnt want her to come along. i hated the fact that i couldnt hang out with this group of girls becuase of jess, or becuase of them. i dont know.

maybe this all stemms from the fact that i want to be friends with everyone, oh and that i really dont like it when people are left out... like REALLY. this goes for other people, and for myself...
i guess theres not much i can do about it anyway... i mean, no one can be friends, good friends, with everyone...

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