selfishness

oh crap... sometimes i feel so selfish... i mean, sure i ask people how they are. but do i really listen to their answer. or do i only hear the stock usual "ok" or sometimes the "good" from them. do i really care why they are feeling the ways they do?

i sometimes get so caught up in how the world has wronged me that i often forget that other people havent had a walk in the park life either. (ok.. so many holes could get poked in that analogy, but lets just leave it for the moment...)

its so stupid. i do things for other people, but somewhere, deep inside of me i just do them to get something back.

how can i bounce through life with a false smile plastered on my face and yet expect other people to tell me if they are frowning, or crying...
no, thats exagerating again. i am generally happy... well.. ok, 70% of the time happy...

but really.. is it so wrong to want someone to be interested in me? to do something nice for me? i guess i think it really is...

stupid stupidness

i say crap to it all, and grr

*shakes fist in general direction of selfishness*

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