dreams

i dont know how many of you out there have the dreams that are so vivid that you actually feel like you are living them. that everything you feel in the dream, emotions wise, you feel when you wake up.

well last night every one of my dreams had me in a relationship in them. and all the emotions that run with that hit me like a tonne of bricks when i woke up. i didnt want to wake up becuase i wanted to keep being happy with someone.

and so now im in a melancholy mood over wanting a boyfriend, but know that i wont get one. the reasons are plentyful. like, i dont like any of the guys i know (in that way... mainly becuase i have convinced myself not to like anyone...), and visa versa. and i dont know if having a bf right now would solve anything. there are things that i have to grow in before i can extend myself to anyone else. and im not into the whole dating just for the sake of dating thing. but still.

the need to be loved is very great...

i still want to escape to my dreams... in fact. there was a lot of people i knew in my dreams.
one of them was me and this other girl (who liked me) trying to get away from the evil people who ran the country. and we had everything ready to set the world free, and we got caught. well, thats to say she did. she could run really rast, but i could turn invisable.
and then there was this guy that i was almost convincing to help us, and i think i was fallng in love with him... and then i woke up...


mmm... sunshine and food... and conversations are helping me to get back into real life...

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