Extrovert-ness

I'm so lonely... thats what this feeling is. this hard tightness inside. i never wanted to feel this was again. my dreams are full of my friends, but not my days. the TV offers little escape, my music sounds repetative, and drawing does little to aleviate the pain.
lord, now i know why you wanted me to fast. you want me to depend on you, to find my home, my value in you. but its hard. my life feels like its caving in. how, what, can i pray?
i feel exhausted but no sleep help, my shoulders are stiff, and my back is sore, but there is no one to massage them... there never is.
everything reminds me of someone, and then i become aware of my lonliness. is this what life post-YITS is going to feel like? i hope not.
i just want the week to be gone. i want to feel again.
so maybe i am an extrovert after all...

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