Randomness.. wait... have i already had that title?
ok.. i am tired... i have had a big day... i have been around people since 8:30 this morning, till 10:30 tonight. and i am an extrovert... i love people. if im not around people for some time of my day i get so incredibly lonely and sad, and depressed and, well, you get the point. but i am so tired. i feel exhausted. i guess that 35% of introvertness in me needs some time for the "me" to have some alone time. i am learning all sorts of things about myself lately...
i have weird mood swngs, and somehow i seem to blog in the bad ones...
we hit a possum on the way home from Jess's house tonight. a big brush tail. it scuttered onto the road and we ran over it. i saw it there before we hit it. it was so small. when we did run over it, the cold, apathetic part of me took hold and i wanted to say... "it was just a possum. it was its own fault" i then realised that that was a terrible thing to say. but perhaps i still believe it.
i ate 5 peices of pizza tonight... i am FULL!
i dreampt about my mother last night... it was weird... i knew why i did. i had been talking with a guy at church and he had asked me a question that i didnt know the answer to, so i "ummed" and "erred". and he said that i am so much like my mum. this was completely random. (he had taught her catechism when she was younger than me.)
somethings you should know about my mum. she was married at 17. had her first child at 20, me at 22, and had an affair and left 10 years later.
the guy i was talking about before also semi mentioned to me, that if its where Gods leading me, that i should consider thinking about ministry type stuff.... me.. a minister!? how curious...
paper mache glue is messy...
with all of the talks about relationships going on around me, both the good and the bad, i think i have decided that they are all too hard, and that the life of a spinster really wont be that bad....
of course im joking. but right now i still think that they are too hard to think about. besides, i dont like anyone i know... not really even attracted to any of them... well, thats a bit extreme... but thats so not the point.
the same question keeps on popping up.. "what are you going to do next year"... i have no idea! i dont know what i want to become when i 'grow up'... personally, i dont want a career, i want to get married and have a family! but there is this gap between now and then. i dont even have box number one, ie, a guy...
i dont know where this blog is going...
