tonight

im going to see my mum tonight.
shes in melbourne, because one of dougs sons has had a baby. well, technically, his partner has. she had it on monday.
so they are in melbourne today looking at it.
they are driving back to maryborough tonight.

anyway, so mum wanted to see us, seeming as it was last december when i last saw them. and thats a little while ago. even if it doesnt seem it.

its weird. i want to see her again.
but, i dont know. somehow... its hard to explain.

i dont think she feels like my mum any more. not deep down.
i mean, i love her, and she *is* my mum. but not the role of mother.

hopefully it will go ok...

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