God is Real
where to start this off.
last night, i began to really stress about my stats exam (which is today at 2pm. prayer would really be nice =) ). i get like that sometimes.
one of my friends was trying to tell me to calm down, and to not stress, but it was only half working.
and then another one of my friends, said something which floored me. it immeadiatly brought tears to my eyes, like its doing now.
i wrote this while sitting in bed last night
"oh my. i dont even know what to say. just happy joy filled tears fill my eyes and make their way down my cheeks. i make him smile!
i feel this overwhelming presence that thats what God wants. for me to make people feel better. but, in all my life. not just an occupation or what not.
suddenly i feel this great burden off my shoulders. i know i have a purpose, a direction.
god really does answer prayer!
this makes me think back to stuff i had to do for yits at the end of last year, for my personal mission vision statement. if i can make one person feel better, then ive accomplished what gods got me here for.
if doesnt matter if i go to uni, it doesnt matter if i work, god can use me regardless!
something in me is wanting to go back to Tabor to do counselling.
God is real! not that i doubted before, but now i know. this feeling is good."
oh well if i fail my exam. god can use me and loves me regardless... god is good, and he loves me. :)
this is what i said for my mission statement at the end of last year "To encourage other people to be the best they can, to be free to listen to them and to help them in anyway that I can..."
this all goes back to the knowledge that its not what i do, or what job im doing, or if i study. but its a matter of who im becoming. i only pray that God will make me more like me :)
an odd peace is stifleing the stress thats trying to take hold. prayer works!
(oh yeah. sorry for the odd message bec. i just needed to get it off my chest.)
wow. Is this the answer you've been looking for? Could counselling be the thing for you?
