Happiness is found in your kindness

i havent laughed so much in a very long time.
i just got back from becs house, which is usually rather fun.
tonights festivites came from a ferrit calander... a very funny peice of work.


im really tired right now. i walked home from uni. well, no, i walked from uni to centrelink, and then missed my bus by a couple minutes, and so decided i would walk home.
it took me an hour. and it would have been a pleasant walk, if i wasnt lugging around two heavy bags with text books in them.

there was a weird guy in centrelink. he was on something, high, stoned, whatever. he was talking very racistly, and loudly, and rudely. and tried to pick a fight with a guy. it was amusing to watch. i talked back to him, about asians killing whales to eat. he sad he hated asians because they kill whales. i told him that not all asians do, he said they did. i said not each invidual one. and he ranted for a while.
i turned my back, trying to conceal my amused grin.

youth allowance stuff. should be happenng some time soon. money will be good.

i hate stressing about money. how can it have such a hold on me, on us?
its becuase we live in a capitalist society, that money= power, and power gives you the edge over others. something fun from sociology today.





i feel kind of weird. dirty almost. used. its hard to describe.
something happened yesterday wich a few of you are privvy to the details.

i feel like ive deserved it, like its my fault it happened.
i feel like im making a big deal out of it.

ive already forgiven the other party involved. they are my friend, and i dont want this between us.

i still feel my heart hardening towards the whole situation though. i have been hurt, and thats my natural reaction of how to cope.
its that and share the burden (sometimes). though, im not sure i want to share the burden in this. i mean. ive told a few people...

i'll get over it. i will have to...

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