fear sucks...

i hate this.
this stupid fear about the unknown.

i am scared, almost terrified of uni. yes, ive been to the orientation, and everyone keeps telling me it will be alright.
but this will be the first time i have had to do something completely on my own in a very long time.

when i went from living in south australia to victoria, and started in year 7 it wasnt like this. i had my sister there, and knew some people in my class. and when your younger your parent/s are supposed to be there to help you through.

when i ended year 12, and started yits, it wasnt like this. my sister had done it before me, and two friends were doing it with me. i had some safety net, someone i could go to if i didnt know what to do.

this isnt like that. uni. i am going there not knowing exactly to expect. i dont really know anyone there, aside from a few girls i met on orientation. i dont know exactly whats expected of me. i dont have my text books. i dont know exactly where my lectures are, or where my tut's are. or who my lecturers are even...

and im too old to hide behind my mothers skirts (figerative) and let them deal with it.
i am being pushing into a small part of the big bad world (bbw) and im terrified.


maybe its not fear, maybe its anxiety. perhaps there really is something wrong with me. perhaps im just being over dramatic...



"strength and courage are what you need,
so dont be terrified, and dont lose heart,
for the LORD your God,
is with you where ever you go. "
Josh 1 :9

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