sucks to be me.
im home. for the mean time, atleast.
i have to go back to uni tonight for a double "research methods and statistics" lecture. 7-9. i don t want to go.
i dont like uni. i dont want to go back.
yes, im grumpy, and im tired, and thats going to effect how i see it. but i dont like it.
i dont even know if its what i want to do.
sure, social science sounds interesting, but its not what im passionate about.
truthfully, id love to go and do an environment course, and become a park ranger. i could do that. biology, botany, horticulture, plants, animals. they are what i like, not peoples minds, or the media, or how society functions.
i want to cry right now.
maybe this feeling will go away. maybe...
my sister thinks i have culture shock, and maybe i do. it seems like all the people i have made friends with so far have been ethnic (not being discriminitive to ethnic people here), and from far away places, like broadmedows, or upfeild, or dandenong, or some other place i have no idea the name of. i like them, sure. its nice to have some different cultured people around.
but i miss people like me, who are normal. who are white, who dont swear, or take drugs. someone who i can relate to, feel like i have something in common with.
and thats a really silly thing to say, i know that, but i miss people like me. eastern suburbers. middle class, two kids and a dog families.
yeah, and now im sure some of you are going to be thinking, oh shes being racist or something. im not. i just want to have some familiarality.
perhaps, one of the biggest things causing me hastle atm is money. me having no money to buy text books, and me needing to buy them before next week. im thinking of asking dad, but he doesnt have much money either.
i know. im tired and emotional, and grumpy. i didnt get much sleep last night. i just want to cry.
i told myself i would stick it out for the year, and then see what happens. i dont want to become one of those statistics who drop out after first semester.
a tut = tutorial.
i have lectures, and tutorials (and one lab) for my 4 subjects/units.
sociology lecture and tut monday morning, 8:30-11:30
psychology lecture and tut tuesday morning, 8:30-11:30
texts and contexts lecture tuesday afternoon 2:30-3:30
research methods and statistics double lecture tuesday evenings 7-9pm.
research methods and statistics tut wednesday afternoon 2-3.
texts and contexts tutorial/lab thursday morning 10:30-12 midday.
my timetable sucks...
sAM.Im sorry to hear all this :-(.
It sounds tough. Im thinking of you and praying for you.
If you desperately need money for textbooks, I'll lend you whatever you need. That is a completely serious offer.
Text me if you wish to take it up. If you dont have enough by next week, Ill pay, and you can pay me back some time this year.
:-). I'm sorry that you can't find any familiarity at uni.
take carem I hope it all works out
