A Very Strange Feeling.
It is currently 4:35 am, sunday morning. any person who has brains should be sleeping. i, however, am unable to.
not becuase im working. no, i am laying in bed, rugged up with my cat purring next to me.
no, i cant sleep cause i feel like i am going to throw up. a very strange feeling, and one i dont particulary like. i havent had this feeling for quite a few years now, and i wish it would go away for many more.
my evening was full of strange feelings. i think i drank my drinks far too quickly, on a semi empty stomach. and i mixed them. in that, my 5 glasses of strong stuff were all different. half an hour, and i dont know how many standard drinks.
i wasnt drunk, but the world was certinally fun. i was a little more than tipsy. apparently i was talking rather loud, though i didnt think i was.
i did win cards though. i was playing skip bo with my sister and her bf, and they had the drinks.
when i moved my head i took a while for my eyes and brain to realise that i had moved, and it took a moment for the world to catch up. so sudden movemets were completely out of the queston.
and there was a wall where there wasnt supposed to be a wall. ok, so the wall always was there, just happened to bump into it. and then complain loudly.
i had the "say absolutly anything, and not think about the consequences" bug.
i actually dont remember much of what was said to many people... i just know that i talked to some people, just not exactly what i said.
i think that it would be very interesting to see me alcoholinated around other people, friends, guys. away from my family, and not alone.
its a strange feeling, letting go of social inhibitians. almost freeing. i know in the back of my mind saying anything to extreme could pose to be embarassing in later conversations, but that thought sometimes gets supressed.
i dont _think_ i said or did anything too bad...
i hope...
