Monday Randomness
mmm. its tuesday morning. have all tuesday mornings off, cause the elective i do is on wednesday nights.
i had a wonderful opportunity to sleep in this morning... did i? *laughs* no, not really...
yesterday was one of the better mondays ive had in a long while. Jess (who usually takes Bec, herself and myself to college) got crashed into last week, and so her car is off getting repaired. so nstead, Iain took us (by us i mean just Jess and i, cause Bec was travelling back from Adelaide).
the classes were a little boring. i like Steven Said. he came to my youth group several times, and went on a camp with us. he remembered me, just not my name.
we did some stuff on spiritual gifts in the afternoon with Rowan. i think most of those test things we had are very ristricted to a church setting. mind you, im not the expert on spiritual gifts so.. *shrugs*
but also yesterday was the open night for the prospective next years YITSers. i decided that i wanted to stay around for that. and im glad i did. (jess didnt, she went home)
i wanted to stay becuase i wanted to be able to just chat with people with out lots of time restraints, or without a whole bunch of other people around.
went for a walk with Dave and Tom to the local shops to get some food to eat for dinner.
now Tom is one that i havent actually spent much time with at all. perhaps thats my problem, but i want to get to the end of the year, and have known people well. so that was nice.
the info night was alright. i saw Dylan (went to school with him), and Lauras best friend who i met down in Leongatha. i was the welcomer (how appropriate, seemining as both my sister and i placed one of my spiritual gifts as hospitality).
stood up the whole night, giving various people massages.
by the end of the night i was tired again. travelling around with Iain, to box hill to drop off one of his friends, then back to college to see if Dave was still there, comforting Dawnie about friendships next year, and then finally coming home. (me, half an hour after my curfue... la la la...) it was good. we get along rather well. but i was still rather tired. funny. i seem to get more relaxed in what im saying when i get tired. we had a conversation about swearing... involving swearing.
i only swear when im tired, really angry, around people who swear a lot, or suprised.
i was laying in bed thinking last night. i got very confused over the past week, from being set in my way of.. datings the wrong word, but you know. and then reading that article and talking with Burkie about it... very confused Sammy.
i think i have made some thoughts about it. i mean. i am trying to be open to the possibility of being pursued. i do think that i am ready to have a more indepth relationship with someone (preferably of the male veriaty). however i do think that there are times in your life where its just not good for you to be open to that. im not going to tell a 15 year old, sure, be open to being pursued. personally, i think tats a little too young to meet your true love. however, it has happened. just not for me.
also, just becuase im being open to being pursued, doesnt mean i have to respond to each of the pursuers (wow.. that sounds rather conceited... yeah, cause i have a plethora of guys following me *laughs*). i mean i have to be attracted to a guy. for me attraction is on three levels. physical (yeah, call me superficial, but there has to be some element of having a physical attraction to the person...) , personal or emotional (ie, being attracted to who they are, how they interact with others. those sorts of things) and spiritual (while having differing beliefs could enable you to grow, there has to be some similarity here. ie, i would like him to be a christian...)
umm.. what else was i going to say about that. *shrugs*
woke up at 5 am this morning. the birds had their usual wake up chorus happening. so i decided to write my speech for tomorrow. dont know how it is though...
mm, the weatherman said its going to be 23.. almost skirt weather. but i had already convinced myself i was wearing a skirt... hope it warms up soon...
oh yeah. i have been rather affectionate with the girls at YITS.. err.. yesterday. almost kissed tracey on the lips (ie, went to kiss her on the cheek, she did the same... *laughs* actually, is the second time thats happened!). but thats a tangent. dont think im going to be like that with the guys though... mm, probably not... dont know how theyd take that, cause you know, girls and guys arent allowed to be just friends are they... *laughs*
had a weird dream. fell in love. felt nice.
