"One Said to the Other"

i wagged my very first class on purpose last night.
my two hour stats lecture, most of which i semi know. from 7-9. i just didnt want to go.
i have the excuse of saying i can watch it online, but in all likelyhood, i probably wont.
oh well...

i feel sick. i woke this morning with a shocking headache, a blocked nose and a cough. the joys of the changing weather.

i think i need to make myself a cup of tea.
i burned my tounge yesterday. april made me a hot chocolate, and it really was just that, hot! good hot chocolate once i added some more cold milk to it.

i woke at some horrible hour of the night with a cramp in one of my calves. i get them sometimes and they are horrible. they wake me up, and i toss and turn and cry out and there isnt much i can do to stop it. and then i worry that it will come back...


i went to bed and started thinking about friendships. i think im getting into one of those insecure moods, and i... i never know how to act in them.

i wonder why it is that i find it hard to work on friendships. i like making new friends, and once it gets to the stage where you know about each other, and have known each other for a while, you have to work at it. i dont do that very well, and i need to learn.
i almost lost one of my closest friends that way. and i dont want it to continue that way...

i didnt read very much of the "safe people" book, becuase i was reading it and thinking to myself, gosh, im not a very safe person.
and i dont know what to do...

how can i change when ive been this way my entire life and dont know anything different...?

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