trust

it must be that time of year.
everyone is feeling it.
the 'what on earth am i doing with my life' feeling.

i think it might be because its getting towards the end of the year and we look back and go, what happened during the year? what did we accheive, where are we headed? did we waste it?

and the weather is getting nicer and nicer and so holiday mode kicks in even though its only october...


i have been stessing about my future. i get daunted by it, it scares me. petrifies me! i know what i want to do, i have wanted to do it for a very long time, but its still so far off. that doesnt worry me very much, but... i dont know.

i am going back to uni next year. i will be working somewhere and saving up money.


i go through all the possible scenarios in my mind and plan things out. and yet i hear God say to trust him. how do the two coincide? i guess a lot of prayer would help this... a lot.

3 weeks of uni left... failed one subject...


i feel restless. thats probably the best way to describe it... and im not even sure how to explain that...
i want to learn something. maybe thats why im so into wanting to learn how to drive. because it gives me something small to focus my attentions on that has results.
sadly enough, i actually do want to job at maccas. i want to be able to learn something new. i am being challanged but not by anything. maybe a new job will show this fear that it doesnt have a hold on me.
maybe it will let me rely on God even more.
and i want the money too...


trust God...

i gotta trust God...

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